I’m writing this down to remind myself over, and over again how this shitty night is treating me. Not that I’m not cherishing my life *scoffs* but honestly my thoughts are consuming more than anything else I could ever think of right now. Not that I’m dragging everything as if everything is about me *scoffs*, it’s just somehow some people tend to treat me as if I’m their personal issues. Relatively speaking, I have had enough of personal issues I need to cope within myself why would I even bother dragging them along with these emotional baggages I need to carry with me.
You would think that after the amount of times I’ve trusted someone and they still hurt me, I had be used to it but it still hurts everytime. Not many can understand the depth of your thoughts. Not everyone can vibe the same wavelength as yours. If you ever own one person who sits in the same par as yours, keep him/her. Fairly, I thought I have one but I was wrong. And hell that hit me hard to realize it’s lowkey God’s way of telling me that in this life, maybe just maybe in this life all I ever have is only myself, nothing else.
I’m above anyone who tried to hurt me or compete me. I am no longer in position to compete with anyone. If you ever feel as if you are in a position of being in a competition with me, check yourself. Sit back, and look closely at your heart. Softly rub that surface, find the cracks. Find the loop, fix it. Maybe then you will realize that I am not even half of that capable making you feel insecure. And that’s when you will find me smirking at all these craps you put me through.
To people who referred me as that motherfucker, thank you for politely reminding me that I may have loopholes for treating people in a wrong way.