I can, therefore I am.

Thursday, June 30

Just to update and make it clear that I'm not dead yet.

It have been a day I was at home, doing nothing. Just got back home yesterday, after the Sports Day. I didn't took a bus this time, I don't know. Just yet to save up some money, and I was too lazy to take a ride to my house later. My body snapped, and I can't even move the whole day. I was only laying on my bed, texting a few people, online-ing. 

I never felt tired like this, seriously. Am just hoping my body will be okay before Saturday.

Abid wanted me to be his tutor in English, just wondering if I could teach him, I don't know. And if you are a friend of mine, my schoolmate to be exact, I know you would wonder why I still could maintain my 2nd rank for my English subject. Ha ha. I, myself still wondering why I could still be on top. Ha ha. I heard that few people said that maybe my English teacher grading were low, and other teachers were high. 

Only God know, how hard I'm trying to write a good essay. What makes it worse is that I only got an A for my English, instead of an A+ in my SBP Mid Year Exam. I'm not saying I'm that good in English that I deserve a higher grade, but I don't know. I don't even feel like writing or speaking in English anymore because of that. Overreacting? Maybe. English is important to me, I don't know. Few people suggest that I should take a Diploma in Teaching English as Second Language (TESL). I don't know yet, I'm not good in teaching others actually. I dont know.

My passion towards writing, is really deep. I don't know. I just really don't know. 

Just hoping I could still maintain my rank in that subject and if I only could beat Siti Rahmah this Trial, hoping so. Pray for me.