This is beyond frustrating. Anger and sadness mashed up in one, even that can't really match up to the emotions running in me as I speak. I kept myself silent, for awhile.
I cried the whole night, for these few days. I dont know. I just dont feel enough with myself. Everything is so wrong now. I failed to fix my own problems. I failed to stand still. I feel completely a failure. I blamed others even I know its all my own fault. Everythings have been a little hectic lately but then again, its been that way for quite a while already. The only thing I could now is, I shouldnt be so hard on myself. Stop being a paranoid.
Or maybe I am never good enough. I never have been and I guess, never will be.
Now, whatever it says. Just follow the flow~
September 9, 2011.
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