.
I thought I understood it,
that I could grasp it,
but I didn't, not really.
Only the smudgeness of it;
the pink-slippered, all-containered, semi-precious eagerness of it.
I didn't realize it would sometimes be more than whole,
that the wholeness was a rather luxurious idea.
Because it's the halves that halve you in half.
I didn't know, don't know,
about the in-between bits;
the gory bits of you, and the gory bits of me.
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