Get scared, it will do you good.

Sunday, November 10

“Get scared. It will do you good. Smoke a bit, stare blankly at some ceilings, beat your head against some walls, refuse to see some people, paint and write. Get scared some more. Allow your little mind to do nothing but function. Stay inside, go out - I don’t care what you’ll do; but stay scared as hell. You will never be able to experience everything. So, please, do poetical justice to your soul and simply experience yourself.”

Albert Camus

And yes, I did all the things Albert had said to me
and thats just make me a scary monster
who get scared looking
at her own reflection in the mirror.