One Morning

Wednesday, April 4

Ph & editing by me.                                                  .

For the rest of my life, I will always wonder why things seemed to be so unfair. I will always want to know what I did to deserve what happened to me. I will always wake up thinking everything is okay, later on realizing that it isn't, and that it most likely never will be. I will cry about it, and I will be angry. I will always have problems trusting people. I'll never think that anything will last. Friendships, and relationships, all of them just seem doomed. But I still try. For the rest of my life, I will try. I used to constantly look for people to replace you. Someone to talk to everyday, someone to trust, someone to believe in, someone to love, someone to have the time of my life with. I stopped though. I learned some people really can't be replaced. 

I just want someone who would stay up late with me and talk about dumb things like this one song I can’t stop listening to or about a new tv show I just got hooked into. I want to feel that comfortable feeling when I'm with you. Where we could talk for hours about everything, anything, and not have a problem with the silence in the middle. Where we do all the ridiculous stuff . Stupid or not, everything will be just so fun. Endless nights, real talks, the "remember whens", — and we will surely remember every details of it all.Or we could play guitar together and show each other songs and draw stupid things. And when I feel bad, I'll listen to his words like — when your life falls apart, always remember that I will be the one who will stay to help you pick the pieces up. And when the rest of the world walks out on you, remember not to close the door, because I am the one who will be walking in to help you through it all.