Uncertainty,

There are some things
about myself that I can’t explain to anyone.

There are some things
I don’t understand at all.
I can’t tell what I think about things
or what I’m after.

I don’t know what my strengths are
or what I’m supposed to do about them.
But if I start thinking
about these things in too much detail,
the whole thing gets scary.
And if I get scared,
I can only think about myself.
I become really self-centered,
and without meaning to, I hurt people.

So I’m not such a wonderful human being.

― Haruki Murakami